Unstuck, 30 Day Shred

Good news--I am feeling better about things today than I was yesterday. I don't really feel so "stuck" in my job and marriage. Just sometimes things get so frustrating! I finished the work for that partner so at least next time I'll know what I'm doing without having all the back and forth and feeling dumb.

As for my marriage, I think I'm just letting too many little things get under my skin. We went out to dinner last night, just us, and it was good. Things can get better.

I started birth control again after I finished breast feeding and it is messing with my emotions. I'm not surprised, when I took it before the same thing happened. I was happy one minute, mad the next, then sad. I realized I was pretty miserable to be around and quit taking it. I'm on the lowest dose of hormones, so I don't know if switching to another kind would do the trick. And I don't really want to stop taking it altogether again because another baby is not in the cards for a couple of years. Anyway, if my blogging seems to be happy/sad/happy it's probably because of that. Because honestly there is a lot in my life to be happy about at the moment, if I could just relax and enjoy it!

ALSO: 30 Day Shred. A couple of things here. I went 9 days working out every day. I have been lazy about getting up the past few mornings and had to do it at night. Which is bad, because I was bound to run out of time one day. Last night I ran out of time. My first free minute came at 10:30. . . so I went to bed. And I felt guilty. Then this morning I was dragging through interval one and then A started crying and I had to stop. It got me thinking that I DO enjoy waking up early and working out, but there is no way I will enjoy 20 more days of the same exact workout. I can tell I'm not ready for Level 2 yet, so my only option with the shred is to continue with more days of Level 1.

I'm adjusting my plan. I'm not throwing working out out the window. . . we're tweaking. I'm still going to workout every day, but I am going to do different things. The dvds are a good plan because I can do that at home, so I'll just vary up which dvds I do. I have Winsor Pilates, so I've already planned that for tomorrow morning and I'm going shopping after work to try and find maybe two more.

I'd have loved to see where the Shred would have taken my body in 30 days, but let's be honest. I'm already getting bored on Day 10. . . and I don't want to burn out and end up not exercising at all!